I want those days back

I don't know why I feel this,

Even though my life is a total bliss.

But I fail to understand you,

What you want and what you do.

It's futile an effort to talk everythime,

Breaking promises each day is not so fine.

I try to keep everything to myself,

Bottling up things also doesn't help.

I feel so annoyed at times,

I feel asphyxiated wearing this fake smile.

But I don't know what else to do,

Since I realize I have started hating you.

Whenever I think things are back to normal,

Everything just starts getting so formal.

At the end of the day, I find you are a stranger,

The same person who earlier was an angel.

I am so much in a despair seeing things like this.

And the old times wet my eyes, so much I miss

Those gone days of happiness, fun and love,

I want you back, I want those days back so much.

Why do we fall in love?

Often sitting in solitude,

A thought comes in my mind.

Why do we fall in love,

And get hurt each time?

Why do we get charmed by someone,

Whom we didn't even know before?

Why does their thought come in our mind,

Why do we think about them even more?

Why does someone's smile enchant us?

Why does their voice put us in delirium?

But why don't they return us back,

The love we give them?

Why do we fall in love,

And get hurt each time?

When the expectations are broken,

And each time we get so unfine.

Oh God! I wish I had never fallen in love.

If it had only pain and hurt in the pack.

I wish I did not have a beating heart,

Cause then it wouldn't have been so bad.

An untold story

It was one fine day,

When you called me up.

Something was too sublime about you,

I was so glad about my luck.

Your eyes, your smile, your voice,

Everything was so contagious.

The way you came in my dreams,

Was too sweet and infectious.

I was so exuberant to have you,

You made me feel so alive all the time.

You wrote me sweet things,

And I thought you had become mine.

But I didn't know what,

Was impending in my hard life,

That it would hurt me,

And would make my heart cry.

You had someone else in your mind,

That part of your heart you had,

To give it to her,

Something you had already planned.

You didn't tell me, instead you,

Said that you hated her.

But I knew it couldn't be possible and

That's the thing people usually said about their love.

Still your words that time,

Made me believe in you.

But somewhere deep inside my heart,

I knew it could never be true.

And see, I was so right,

You loved her, not me.

She was the one who captured your heart,

And now I was deprived of all the glee.

Yes, then I finally asked you.

'You like her? Tell me please.'

You said you didn't know,

And that was the answer to my question already.

It hurt me, I cried all night,

All my dreams were shattered.

I was to a reality I always dreaded about,

My heart was bruised and tattered.

Why did God do this to me?

I had no clue.

If I had no place in your heart,

Then why did I fall in love with you?

I still say I have no grudge against her,

For she is , was and will be my dear friend.

But you love her and she loves someone else,

And I know, it is not such a good end.

She tells me not to think about you,

I should tread a path that seems new.

But that is something i can't,

I really can't afford to do.

I am too serious in my love with you,

Can't you see how much I care about you?

I have been always with you everytime,

And now I am being asked something else to do.

The worst thing about this is,

that you probably know I love you.

You don't want to accept it though,

Because you are just like her too.

This is my story which

I know will remain untold.

Someday you'll forget me too,

But the time, with me I'll always hold.

In my memories, in my dreams,

You'll still be there.

You just do better and get what you want.

And this will always be in my prayers.

I can't pray to Lord that,

he makes her yours,

As she's someone else's,

And they love each other that's for sure.

But I hope you'll get someone,

In future better than us two.

She'll always love you but I know,

One can never love you more than I do.

Unsaid

Once upon a time there was a little girl,

Simple and shy was she and very bubbly.
She sang songs and danced on her the tunes,
And used to live in her own dreams happily.

Though she was content with whatever little she had,
But sometimes a thought always came in her mind.
Which made her despondent day by day,
There was somebody she was missing in her life.

She was desperate to find love in this world
So that she could also feel special,
When that someone would love her unconditionally,
And wanted only the good things to happen.

One day, when she was going around,
She collided with a charming guy.
With just one glimpse of his,
She fell for him and became high.

She started considering him her everything,
As she could not imagine herself without him.
And if he leaves her ever,
Her life would surely become dim.

She loved to spend time with him,
As it gave her happiness whenever he was around.
Whenever he did something funny and stupid,
She would laugh her heart out.

But the guy did not love her,
As he had someone else in his heart.
And it used to hurt the girl a lot,
Knowing that together they would never ever start.

But one thing she did not know was,
It was only her for whom his heart used to beat.
As it was she who saved him from being alone,
Just to tell each other their feelings was the only need.

The guy was unsure of what to do,
As he thought that maybe he did not love her.
The girl waited for him crying all nights sitting on the bed,
This is how some words which could change their lives were left unsaid.

Sorry

Here I sit with a heavy heart,
As a tear rolls down my cheek.
I did wrong by breaking your trust,
By committing such a foolish deed.

Braking my promise I have lost all your trust,
But believe me I did not want to upset you.
I just couldn't see the things going off like that,
Otherwise such a stupid thing I would never do.

Each time I prove to be a bad friend of yours,
By doing something or the other you hate,
And I get stuck up at a bad time,
When I feel like laughing at my hapless fate.

I know I have no right to say it again,
But I promise you it was the first and the last time.
I am SORRY for what I did,
And I am ready to regret it all this while.

PS - Please forgive me.

A Thank you note

I never thought that I would write this note someday,

Through which I tell you how much you mean to me.

I pen down whatever I feel today at midnight,

And I thank you so much for giving me all the glee.

I know we had so many ups and downs in this journey,

When sometimes I was wrong and the other time it was you.

But still you never let my life to become colorless,

Making me smile by gifting me so many hues.

Three years back I didn't even know I would meet such a person,

In my life, who would become really nice friend of mine,

Who would always be there and listen to me,

Whenever I would need someone in hard times.

A person because of whom I have learned to live truly,

How to smile and how to cry was what I discovered.

Who helped me to believe in myself and be confident,

To be fine at all times and be braver.

I am so lucky to have you in my life,

You have no idea how much you mean to me.

But yes, I accept today, for making me meet,

My best friend, I thank my destiny.

PS - I thank you. I thank you so much for everything. I feel so lucky at the moment. But yes, I do want a few things from you too. A few things to change some things. A few things for you. And I know you will not disappoint me. :)

When he turned a stranger

Here she writes what she feels about him now.

She tells how how each time he has let her down.

How he is unfailing drifting away,

Not listening about anything she says.

She thought that he was her real friend.

But now she sees this friendship's near end.

He is really very selfish and mean,

She wonders how such good friends they had ever been.

He was such a likable person who she never wanted to lose,

Who was there every time for her whenever she went blue.

But today he doesn't even turn around if she ever falls.

Since he has others and has to save them all.

He wants them to make him the priority in their lives,

And in his company since he's so jolly, they feel so alive.

But here she tries to talk to him that she feels lonely,

But he blames her all the time saying 'She's so cranky'.

She says a word or two again and for sometime,

He would talk like he was before and she feels fine.

But then after a while, again he would be the same,

Going away, being ignorant, rude and no more sane.

He doesn't realize it what he's doing to her this time,

When so many others had done the same with him in his life.

Was it always a lie whenever he called her his best friend?

Did he ever utter a word that was something he really meant?

Was she always kept in a denial that he would always be there?

And that whenever she needed him, he would be right in front of her?

She's scared of believing any other person from now on,

All the efforts she made to make things better are all done.

But now she thanks him, thanks him for everything,

She thanks him for the little happiness he used to bring.

She thanks him for he changed himself in such a way.

She thanks him for being her best friend for a while.

And for he remains happy with the new bunch, she'll always pray.

She apologizes for each time she annoyed him,

Even now when she would tell her feelings to him,

And she's sorry for being a pest in his life for so long,

She's sorry for nagging him about his being always wrong.

P.S. - Today, she is broken, alone, and dull. And the sad part is that he doesn't care. He has become stone-hearted and it doesn't makes any difference in his life losing her. He's in fact happy. And he has not even tried to make things better proving how important she was in his life. He has forgotten that when he had nobody, he had her. And now, he has everyone, but not her. Thanks!