Why do we fall in love?

Often sitting in solitude,

A thought comes in my mind.

Why do we fall in love,

And get hurt each time?

Why do we get charmed by someone,

Whom we didn't even know before?

Why does their thought come in our mind,

Why do we think about them even more?

Why does someone's smile enchant us?

Why does their voice put us in delirium?

But why don't they return us back,

The love we give them?

Why do we fall in love,

And get hurt each time?

When the expectations are broken,

And each time we get so unfine.

Oh God! I wish I had never fallen in love.

If it had only pain and hurt in the pack.

I wish I did not have a beating heart,

Cause then it wouldn't have been so bad.

An untold story

It was one fine day,

When you called me up.

Something was too sublime about you,

I was so glad about my luck.

Your eyes, your smile, your voice,

Everything was so contagious.

The way you came in my dreams,

Was too sweet and infectious.

I was so exuberant to have you,

You made me feel so alive all the time.

You wrote me sweet things,

And I thought you had become mine.

But I didn't know what,

Was impending in my hard life,

That it would hurt me,

And would make my heart cry.

You had someone else in your mind,

That part of your heart you had,

To give it to her,

Something you had already planned.

You didn't tell me, instead you,

Said that you hated her.

But I knew it couldn't be possible and

That's the thing people usually said about their love.

Still your words that time,

Made me believe in you.

But somewhere deep inside my heart,

I knew it could never be true.

And see, I was so right,

You loved her, not me.

She was the one who captured your heart,

And now I was deprived of all the glee.

Yes, then I finally asked you.

'You like her? Tell me please.'

You said you didn't know,

And that was the answer to my question already.

It hurt me, I cried all night,

All my dreams were shattered.

I was to a reality I always dreaded about,

My heart was bruised and tattered.

Why did God do this to me?

I had no clue.

If I had no place in your heart,

Then why did I fall in love with you?

I still say I have no grudge against her,

For she is , was and will be my dear friend.

But you love her and she loves someone else,

And I know, it is not such a good end.

She tells me not to think about you,

I should tread a path that seems new.

But that is something i can't,

I really can't afford to do.

I am too serious in my love with you,

Can't you see how much I care about you?

I have been always with you everytime,

And now I am being asked something else to do.

The worst thing about this is,

that you probably know I love you.

You don't want to accept it though,

Because you are just like her too.

This is my story which

I know will remain untold.

Someday you'll forget me too,

But the time, with me I'll always hold.

In my memories, in my dreams,

You'll still be there.

You just do better and get what you want.

And this will always be in my prayers.

I can't pray to Lord that,

he makes her yours,

As she's someone else's,

And they love each other that's for sure.

But I hope you'll get someone,

In future better than us two.

She'll always love you but I know,

One can never love you more than I do.

Unsaid

Once upon a time there was a little girl,

Simple and shy was she and very bubbly.
She sang songs and danced on her the tunes,
And used to live in her own dreams happily.

Though she was content with whatever little she had,
But sometimes a thought always came in her mind.
Which made her despondent day by day,
There was somebody she was missing in her life.

She was desperate to find love in this world
So that she could also feel special,
When that someone would love her unconditionally,
And wanted only the good things to happen.

One day, when she was going around,
She collided with a charming guy.
With just one glimpse of his,
She fell for him and became high.

She started considering him her everything,
As she could not imagine herself without him.
And if he leaves her ever,
Her life would surely become dim.

She loved to spend time with him,
As it gave her happiness whenever he was around.
Whenever he did something funny and stupid,
She would laugh her heart out.

But the guy did not love her,
As he had someone else in his heart.
And it used to hurt the girl a lot,
Knowing that together they would never ever start.

But one thing she did not know was,
It was only her for whom his heart used to beat.
As it was she who saved him from being alone,
Just to tell each other their feelings was the only need.

The guy was unsure of what to do,
As he thought that maybe he did not love her.
The girl waited for him crying all nights sitting on the bed,
This is how some words which could change their lives were left unsaid.

Sorry

Here I sit with a heavy heart,
As a tear rolls down my cheek.
I did wrong by breaking your trust,
By committing such a foolish deed.

Braking my promise I have lost all your trust,
But believe me I did not want to upset you.
I just couldn't see the things going off like that,
Otherwise such a stupid thing I would never do.

Each time I prove to be a bad friend of yours,
By doing something or the other you hate,
And I get stuck up at a bad time,
When I feel like laughing at my hapless fate.

I know I have no right to say it again,
But I promise you it was the first and the last time.
I am SORRY for what I did,
And I am ready to regret it all this while.

PS - Please forgive me.

A Thank you note

I never thought that I would write this note someday,

Through which I tell you how much you mean to me.

I pen down whatever I feel today at midnight,

And I thank you so much for giving me all the glee.

I know we had so many ups and downs in this journey,

When sometimes I was wrong and the other time it was you.

But still you never let my life to become colorless,

Making me smile by gifting me so many hues.

Three years back I didn't even know I would meet such a person,

In my life, who would become really nice friend of mine,

Who would always be there and listen to me,

Whenever I would need someone in hard times.

A person because of whom I have learned to live truly,

How to smile and how to cry was what I discovered.

Who helped me to believe in myself and be confident,

To be fine at all times and be braver.

I am so lucky to have you in my life,

You have no idea how much you mean to me.

But yes, I accept today, for making me meet,

My best friend, I thank my destiny.

PS - I thank you. I thank you so much for everything. I feel so lucky at the moment. But yes, I do want a few things from you too. A few things to change some things. A few things for you. And I know you will not disappoint me. :)

When he turned a stranger

Here she writes what she feels about him now.

She tells how how each time he has let her down.

How he is unfailing drifting away,

Not listening about anything she says.

She thought that he was her real friend.

But now she sees this friendship's near end.

He is really very selfish and mean,

She wonders how such good friends they had ever been.

He was such a likable person who she never wanted to lose,

Who was there every time for her whenever she went blue.

But today he doesn't even turn around if she ever falls.

Since he has others and has to save them all.

He wants them to make him the priority in their lives,

And in his company since he's so jolly, they feel so alive.

But here she tries to talk to him that she feels lonely,

But he blames her all the time saying 'She's so cranky'.

She says a word or two again and for sometime,

He would talk like he was before and she feels fine.

But then after a while, again he would be the same,

Going away, being ignorant, rude and no more sane.

He doesn't realize it what he's doing to her this time,

When so many others had done the same with him in his life.

Was it always a lie whenever he called her his best friend?

Did he ever utter a word that was something he really meant?

Was she always kept in a denial that he would always be there?

And that whenever she needed him, he would be right in front of her?

She's scared of believing any other person from now on,

All the efforts she made to make things better are all done.

But now she thanks him, thanks him for everything,

She thanks him for the little happiness he used to bring.

She thanks him for he changed himself in such a way.

She thanks him for being her best friend for a while.

And for he remains happy with the new bunch, she'll always pray.

She apologizes for each time she annoyed him,

Even now when she would tell her feelings to him,

And she's sorry for being a pest in his life for so long,

She's sorry for nagging him about his being always wrong.

P.S. - Today, she is broken, alone, and dull. And the sad part is that he doesn't care. He has become stone-hearted and it doesn't makes any difference in his life losing her. He's in fact happy. And he has not even tried to make things better proving how important she was in his life. He has forgotten that when he had nobody, he had her. And now, he has everyone, but not her. Thanks!

Just alone

I was always sure of the fact that nothing could cease our friendship,

But now I feel that you want to break free this grip.

I don’t know but I feel you don’t really want me to be there,

When you are so happy with the “new” and I m still standing here.

Waiting and expecting that may be you would come back,

And ask me, that If I am alone, if I am sad.

Still I stand here waiting for you with my hopes ditching me,

Where you are still hanging around happily ignoring me.

Now I know what I did was may be wrong,

And I know that you won’t agree to my this song.

but I had always risked all my relationships with others

so that I could be with you whenever you felt troubled.

Now you would say, why did I choose that path,

You had never asked me to remain in this dark.

But the thing is you were my real good friend who was not fine,

And I wanted that you life would brightly shine.

I still would do anything for our friendship and for you ,

Even if I am forlorn right now and my life is getting all blue.

But I just want you to think about what has happened as the time has elapsed,

And I pray to get those happy old days back.

Here I am, alone, Just ALONE.

In my destiny

Little did I know that you would enter in my life,

And with you beside me I would win all my strifes,

My world would shimmer like the stars in the sky,

With each passing moment, without you, I would die.

Soon you would conquer my heart and me,

And this would be something I would never like to break free.

In just a few days you would become my everything,

And the lovely songs of our togetherness I would sing.

Your eyes would be the ocean I'd love to drown in.

Your hands would be the one I'd want to hold when the night would get dim.

Your lips would be the one making my steps fumble.

You touch would get me high and make me tremble.

Your voice would be the music I'd hope to repeatedly listen to.

The words you would utter would always be praying for the love of us two.

Your smile would bewitch me and drive me crazy.

Your aroma would benumb me and make me dizzy.

But never did I know that all this was just momentary.

That you could never be mine as you were not sent for me.

I killed all my hopes so as to refrain the hurt and the agony.

I had to accept that it was all written in my destiny.

You were surely my angel and I loved you.

I don't know why we were not fated to be together and I couldn't undo-

All the times and all that I felt for you in the gone time,

And now I know that you are not meant to be mine.

Why

I walk a few steps with fear in my heart.

I think over and over again whether again will I be able to start?

Whatever all I had restrained myself from have come again to me.

But I dont want to get into it and just want to break free.

Time again has taken a turn and brought me to the same place.

I can again feel the grief of all those lost days.

After a short span of mirth, the sorrow has come yet again.

And making me believe that not for a long time, the glee with me can remain.

I again carry the burden of all the wrong deeds I've done.

And the memories have been regenerated that long time back I had burnt.

I feel sick and helpless with everything that is happening around.

After getting over it all, I now again feel so down.

Why is it that happiness cannot stay with me for long?

Why am I the only one who is every time proven wrong?

Why is it that every bright day is swallowed by the dusk?

Why is it that everytime my present is replaced by the past?

I am tired of getting bothered every time by all this.

And tired of praying to God to let me also have some bliss.

I stand in the middle of the desert and stare at the clear sky,

And pray to the Lord, to answer all my questions, WHY.

Awaiting the end

Out of nowhere, his friendship was offered to me,

When I was all new to this place.

I accepted it and was happy to see,

Such a person who was so merry and always gay.

A sweet and a clear-hearted person was he,

Who would enlighten the place where his presence was witnessed.

The air there was full of mirth and exuberance,

The essence of which I can never forget.

I got closer to him and we became such good friends,

But some lunes around could not see him getting a new buddy.

They uttered unkind and cruel words to me about him,

And said things so that my friendship with him I could cease.

But I had my own ways of judgment about a person,

And so, nobody I ever did heed.

I remained his friend even then,

And did things so that a buoyant life he could lead.

But as the year passed, he began to grow morose,

His life was made tough and was adorned by thorns.

He would get depressed and sad every time easily,

As more people who spoke wrong about him were born.

Somewhere there was my fault too,

As I also blamed him for some reasons.

But believe me; I never wanted to hurt him,

But to bring in his life some spry seasons.

I unlocked some stories to which only I had the keys,

And apprised him of each callous word, for him that was being uttered.

I know it must have hurt and pierced his heart a lot,

But still the innocent he, in agony too, heard it, and not even a word he murmured.

He listened to everything I told him patiently,

And promised to wash all the flaws off him.

I know he never wanted to do anything iniquitous to anyone,

Thinking about all that, with tenderness, my heart was up to the brim.

He tried his level best and I found in him a change,

I began to respect him even more seeing all his efforts,

He achieved some new friends and got some old ones back as rewards,

But still he felt, of something in his life, there was a dearth.

He wears a charismatic smile for this world.

It has been two years since then when I made him my friend.

But what pinches me the most is that still,

I could not bring the grief within him to an end.

The Black Rose

She still kept the black rose that he had given her,

And remembered all those painful words that he had murmured.

The scenes of the past began flashing before her moist eyes,

She saw how day by day, she was made to die.

She had been a simple and shy girl,

Who thought she had everything in this wise world.

But still she felt there was a dearth of something in her life,

It was him, when she saw him first, she realized.

She fell for him that very moment he uttered the first words,

And suddenly everything became so colorful in her dull world.

Her love grew stronger and stronger as each day had passed.

Living each moment without him had become so hard.

He was, although, unaware of the sprouting love,

This was so pure just like a white dove.

Still something pulled him towards her, he didn’t know why,

Like the clouds in the airy sky fly so high.

Gradually, the twosome became so intimate,

That everyday, to hear each other’s voice, they couldn’t wait

Even though they were all alone, they were together,

And they had faith that their relationship would never deter.

But they both were innocent and unwary of their cruel fate,

Which came to put their long intimacy to slay.

The clouds shrieked and the dark night sky cried,

The wind ceased blowing and the atmosphere became dry.

The boy had impending death in near future,

But he had realized till now that even he loved her.

Just to see his love happy and fill her life with bliss,

He decided to release himself from this relationship’s grip.

The girl on the other hand had no clue to all this,

And dreamt about spending all day and nights with him.

She was benumbed the moment the guy came to her,

And she wished she was deaf when all those words he had uttered.

And he had brought with him the black rose,

Seeing which the girl already had grown so morose.

He handed it to her with his heart brimming with so much pain,

Seeing tears in her eyes, he wished he could just become mum.

But he knew he had to do this to make her hate him,

So that she would throw him out of her heart and forget him,

So that she would live a happy life and find someone new,

Who would keep her happier and as fresh as the morning dew.

The girl still couldn’t understand why he did that to her.

How could he forget all those vows, promises and words.

She cried bitterly for the following hours,

Recalling how sweetly to her he suddenly turned so harsh.

She still didn’t get to know about her love’s death.

She believed that her patience and love was just undergoing God’s tests.

And now today she took out that black rose that he had given her,

And remembered all those painful words he had murmured.

She screamed and cried all day and night.

Till now she too had become ready to bid this world a goodbye.

Nobody knows whether it was their love or just a game of time,

Exactly on month later, on the same day, the girl too died.

My Net

Well, right now I'm not at my home. I'm at my grandparents' place. Here this fu***** internet is so irritating that it has really pissed me off. So, thats why I wrote this poem to publicise my grief :D

I sit when I'm free,
Just to talk with my friends,
But before I start to chat,
The conversation ends.

The net hates me so much,
And it incurs my rage,
Whenever I try to surf something,
I fail to open the page.

Every time I get the message,
“Failed to connect to the server”.
It tries its best to mess with me,
And let my interest for it sever.

My friends also end up,
In being its victims.
And perhaps I become the indirect means,
For all the abuse and swearings.

I feel like smashing the screen,
And damaging the parts.
For this net is like a curse,
Pissing me off with its behavior so harsh.

When

Tears started to stream out of my eyes,

When I thought about the time,
When you and I together looked at the stars,
In the dark night skies.

It began to hurt deep inside my heart,
When I remembered about us ,
You and I were always together,
In the times which were easy or hard.

An immense urge in me arouse to yell,
When the pictures of the past began to sprout,
When I used to wait to open the door,
When you’d come and ring the bell.

My eyes began to swell due to my weeps,
Reminiscing about the love we had in the past,
And the wonderful days we spent together,
When you comforted me with you touch so meek.

Weaker I was getting day by day,
Since the day you and I had separated,
You broke your promise of staying with me forever,
And you forgot everything that you used to say.

Why did you have to leave?
When I needed you the most?
Why did you have to throw me from your life?
Tell me please, tell me honestly.

Was I just a game you were playing with?
Or just for sometime you used me?
I loved you so much you know.
But dear, I still can never forget you even for a minute.

I wish you had never left…

History's mystery

I sit on my bed and wonder,

Why the kings did commit blunders?

I try pretty hard but cannot understand,

Why can’t we free ourselves from these strands?

Was it our fault that the British made colonies?

Or they committed such crude atrocities?

Was it us who asked the French to conquer other regions?

Why are we forced to study all, nobody knows the reasons.

Now they justify this by stating such things,

All this will make us wise and knowledge will it bring,

Studying all this will warn us not to repeat the same mistakes,

But why can’t they understand that gone are those days?

We study so that we can become something in life,

And be successful and reach places so high.

But by mugging up all that, will it do any good?

For we will forget everything in a day or two.

It is indigestible for me to study history,

For I found tat subject so miffing and creepy.

The hatred for it in me is so immense,

The need to study it is and will always be a suspense.

The story of the love plant.

Seeds were sown in my heart the day,
When you said you’ll make me feel okay.
You poured in it the water of your passion,
And nourished it with all your love and affection.

Slowly and slowly the seed began to grow,
And the new signs of life it started to show.
From it arouse a little sweet sapling of love,
Which was innocent and looked so tender.

You and I together took care of it,
And never let it become down even a bit.
It developed in the nutrients of our devotion,
And inside it were brewing many aspirations.

Finally it was grown healthy and bright,
It was warmed in our cozy and tepid sunlight.
It looked so dazzling and green,
With such a cheerful and jaunty sheen.

But one day came a tempest so strong,
And the plant was about to uproot in the storm.
We became afraid and our hearts began to sink,
With the fear of all the unholy things that were happening.

You were moved by what was going on,
And longed the dusk to end and waited for the dawn.
But the gale was strong-minded and didn’t cease,
And the plant would expire soon it believed.

Tears started to stroll down my cheeks,
The storm was the strongest and at the highest peak.
My heart was brimming with the terror that the plant would perish,
And the memories would soon be erased that the leaves cherished.

You were broken too when you saw me crying,
With every tear that fell from my eyes you were dying.
But what was fated could never be changed,
It was written so the efforts to stop the storm went in vain.

You and I were not meant to be together,
One day, our relationship was destined to sever.
That plant of love that was grown in my heart,
Died the day when the storm came, for me it was too hard.

You and I separated that very day,
With all the memories in our hearts when we were gay.
I still keep them with me all the time,
And just a thought of them really makes me cry.

Erase the memory

Another day passed away,

Another moment on my bed I lay,

Another night when I cried so much,

Another time my heart ripped apart.

Every time when I promise myself,

I will not cry and stay jubilant.

But alas! Joy cannot be with me for long,

It ditches me and each time leaves me alone.

People think I remain miserable unnecessarily,

And cry all the time needlessly.

They say I am a sad soul.

Depressed, glum and morose on the whole.

They nag and keep on telling me,

I used to be once jolly but now they find no glee.

They ask me why I have become so morbid.

But nobody has a clue as to what the truth is.

I don’t know why all this had to befall;

When I was leading a happy life after all.

Everything shattered within a few days,

It’s the end of it now what they say.

But it’s not for nothing.

There is a reason behind every damn thing.

This hasn’t happened without a cause.

Something brought the delight to a pause.

I don’t want to divulge further,

It would hurt me if I remind it ever after.

I want to pack and seal it in my heart,

Thinking about it makes me sob real hard.

I don’t want this story to be told.

I want to move on and don’t want it to hold.

I don’t mean I want to forget everything.

I just mean to erase the memories of my sufferings.

मेरी नन्ही बहन

सोचा नहीं था कि होगी वह खूबसूरत इतनी,

कि देखते ही उसका वो मासूम चेहरा मन खिल उठा,

उसकी वह मुसकुराहट, उसकी वह खिलखिलाहट,

उसे देखते ही मेरे हृदय से निकलती है दुआ ही दुआ|

उसका अजीबोगरीब तरह से बडबडाना,

और अपनी न समझ सकने वाली भाषा में समझाना,

उसका वह प्रेम प्रर्दशित करना,

और अपनी कोमल आँखों को झपकाना|

उसके आने से चारों ओर रौशनी छा जाती,

ओर मुरझाये हुए पुष्प भी लगता मनो मुस्काने लगे,

उसके नन्हे-नन्हे कदम जब धरती पर पड़े,

तो ज़मीन पर पड़े पत्थर भी सांस लेने लगे|

उसका फूलों सा नाज़ुक शरीर है इतना कोमल,

व उसका पवित्र स्पर्श लगे इतना निर्मल,

अपने छोटे-छोटे हाथों व अँगुलियों से जब वह ताली बजाये,

तो उसकी आँखों की चमक देखकर जी खुश हो जाये|

याद बहुत आती है उसकी,

जो रहती है वह इतनी दूर,

उसकी एक झलक भी नहीं देख सकती,

न मिल पाने के लिए जो हूँ मजबूर|

अब तो केवल तस्वीरों को ही देखती हूँ उसकी,

और उसकी प्रतीक्षा में काटती हूँ अपने दिन,

सोचती हूँ अब जब आएगी तो,

अपनी मीठी आवाज़ मुझे दीदी कहकर बुलाएगी|

अब तो वह और भी बड़ी हो जायेगी,

थोडा थोडा सब कुछ समझने लगेगी,

खेलेगी वह मेरे साथ और शितानी भी करेगी,

तब मैं उसे झूट-मूठ दान्तुंगी और उसके रूठने पर उसे मनाउंगी|

यही सब सोचती हूँ मैं रात-दिन,

जो मुझे मोहित कर देते हैं पल भर के लिए,

जल्दी से बस यहाँ आ जाये वो,

तो रोशन हो जाए मेरे जीवन के बुझे हुए दिए|

I feel so lucky

Every morning starts with a fresh breeze.

Don’t know why but it keeps me at so much ease.

The salubrious air makes it easy for me to breathe.

And I feel happy in my heart so deep.

I see the birds around me chirping.

The bugs on the booful flowers are wandering.

Those clouds above my head are drifting.

And all this makes me stand below wondering.

I am happy that god made me blessed.

My life is now free from any kind of stress.

In the autumn all the withered leaves had shed.

And the new leaves of hopes and aspiration have come back.

I feel glad to have so many great people around.

I am happy with one, not many friends in abound.

I felt my life was gross but I was so wrong.

Everything now goes so smooth and sound.

I am not sure whether the dark days have gone from my life or not,

But I’ve kicked all the worries away just in one shot.

The doors are closed for grief and the sorrows are out.

There is nothing now that can make me taut.

My eyes shimmer and the bliss can be seen.

They flaunt a jovial bright sheen.

I have understood what it really means.

Life is too short to live and should be made clean.

I thank my parents to give their unconditional love.

I thank my that friend who was with me all the times so tough.

I thank my other fellows who hated me or loved me truly so much.

I feel so lucky today for my every gain and loss.

A Candid Confession

I thought I’d been lie to,

I couldn’t believe that it was true,

I didn’t let my heart accept it,

For I didn’t want another time to lose my bliss.

But still somehow my heart didn’t support my mind,

It ditched me and let itself be deceived another time,

For I knew it would hurt me as I knew the truth,

But my heart was immature and alone it stood.

It was melted by those sweet words and sayings,

It couldn’t understand, it was just another game someone was playing,

It floated within the sea of those sugary utterances,

For it felt sweet and it made it feel exalted.

But my mind was worried about my heart,

It knew it’ll happen again and break it so hard,

Then my heart would lose all the hope,

And it’ll doubt about anything later for sure.

My mind was so right with everything it thought,

The heart was being hurt again in another shot,

Now it is torn, battered and wounded,

It feels as if chopped by a knife into pieces.

It doesn’t bleed nor does it hurt,

Whenever it speaks, nobody hears a word,

It has been numbed and frozen,

The jauntiness from it has been stolen.

My heart isn’t very depressed or sad,

Nor it has suffered anything that it can claim to be very bad,

It’s just that it has stopped to expect,

My trust has been broken and it can never be back..