Erase the memory

Another day passed away,

Another moment on my bed I lay,

Another night when I cried so much,

Another time my heart ripped apart.

Every time when I promise myself,

I will not cry and stay jubilant.

But alas! Joy cannot be with me for long,

It ditches me and each time leaves me alone.

People think I remain miserable unnecessarily,

And cry all the time needlessly.

They say I am a sad soul.

Depressed, glum and morose on the whole.

They nag and keep on telling me,

I used to be once jolly but now they find no glee.

They ask me why I have become so morbid.

But nobody has a clue as to what the truth is.

I don’t know why all this had to befall;

When I was leading a happy life after all.

Everything shattered within a few days,

It’s the end of it now what they say.

But it’s not for nothing.

There is a reason behind every damn thing.

This hasn’t happened without a cause.

Something brought the delight to a pause.

I don’t want to divulge further,

It would hurt me if I remind it ever after.

I want to pack and seal it in my heart,

Thinking about it makes me sob real hard.

I don’t want this story to be told.

I want to move on and don’t want it to hold.

I don’t mean I want to forget everything.

I just mean to erase the memories of my sufferings.